Letter to my mom.
Dear Mother,
I try to defend you to EVERYONE who said you were a terrible person.
I defended you even after you beat me and forced me to walk across town
to my grandparents neighborhood at 10 at night
i was in shorts and it was snowing out.
I am choosing to go get help for myself
and you tell me im “running from my problems”
I tell you that you can just lose me for 6 months to a year
or you can lose me for the rest of your life
and you call me a ***** and say
“suicide is stupid.”
i fucking hate you so much.
I will never defend you EVER AGAIN.
I wouldn’t defend you in court
i wouldn’t defend you to anyone
i dont care who the fuck it is.
I can live without you
i have done it before
you are no one special all you did was birth me.
You didn’t raise me
you were to busy getting drunk all the time
I hope you get alcohol posing
I DONT CARE HOW BAD THAT SOUNDS!
Every time this family gets better or moves on
you come back and ruin it
You have children that are half black
and can call our father a “******”
in front of us
I have never hated someone as much as i hate you
I don’t even hate my rapist as much as you.
Fuck you.
3 comments
sorry if this is not the reply you need – ‘mom’ sounds like a loser. Just move on and live for you. Leave a note informing her that if she ever tries to contact you – you will report her abuse to police.
Most (if not all) parents screw up at some point, some more than others, they’re only human. That doesn’t justify some major screw ups tho (like some that you mention). The good thing is that you know that you have to be careful with your mom now, and that’s a good start. Considering it’s likely that you’ll have to deal with her again, you might want to dial down on the hate levels tho (even if just a little bit)… that does you no good in the end.
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