My dear friends

I long for the day that I forget my username and password to this site. Though I receive support on it from such wonderful people that remind me I am blessed, I cannot help but wish my life wasn’t like this. I don’t even know if I want to harm myself anymore.  I think I’m past the point of wanting to hurt myself. I’m just so tired. My soul is so tired. Everything that I wanted for the world, everything that I wanted for much friends, my family, and for me I don’t think can happen. I just want a world where I bring light and my light spreads and makes the world a better place. But I have tried so hard and I am tired. I’m not going to harm myself or anyone else so don’t worry. I’m just tired.