If I had a way to kill myself today, christmas day, I fuckin would………. I’d give everyone a lovely present, maybe a bow or two, and throw some green glitter down for holiday cheer, to accompany all the blood.
Maybe I need some of that glitter anyways, my wrist could look pretty festive right now with all that sparkly green and lovely red.
~Oathkeeper
I’m losing…. oathkeeper, right.. huh, I broke my promise some months ago, not much of an oathkeeper.. would she care much if I told her I’ve tried to off myself several times?
For those of you that may be able to enjoy the holidays, please do… take care of yourselves, all of you.
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That wouldn’t be very festive for me. I’m red-green color blind. Take care of yourself too.
Ah well that’s no fun, not being able to at least see the nice colors and lights everywhere outside. Thanks
We all lose our grip at times, so don’t be too hard on yourself, oath and all. I was majorly clean of suicidal thoughts for the past 2 years (which is quite a lot, all things considered)… yesterday tho… yeah, a promise i keep with a family member is all that got me through the day. I do hope your day gets better eventually.
Thanks, hope yours does too.
Yeah I can reflate to this. My life has been miserable for a long time. In fact most of my life has been a miserable experience and I am in my mid 40’s > so I have had like 40 plus years of mostly pain and torment and hard times. Yes, I have managed to sneak in a lot of good moments in my life > but for the most part its been a real rocky hard life for me and I get to the point where I am sick of it all and just want it to end. But I will tell you suicide is not always that easy. I have had several failed suicide attempts and they were not easy to go through
so before you go out and do something rash… think things through
I hope that things get better for you > I really do
if you want somebody to chat with my email is
rushfan2017(at)yandex.com
No it’s not easy unfortunately, 4 attempts deep, and I most likely won’t be trying THAT way again…