If something could save you….what would it be?

I love to think that love would do the trick for me too, but I just feel I’m too far gone I would just drag that person down, and inevitably end up in the same place
Then I like to think that if the world just somehow managed to be “perfect”, and everything “evil” was gone, however impossible, that it would be enough of a happy place, to make me happy enough, and even then I’m convinced I’m probably too far gone for even that to be enough
I have many fantasies play out in my mind, of what could do it, what would be that “magic pill” for me.
but they all lead to the same place, I just don’t know what could be “enough”, because I think I’ve finally convinced myself I’m just too far off for any of that now
The heart is broken, the mind faded, the body spend, the fire is gone, and the soul is lost in darkness. No will or desire to return, or anything, but to drift and disappear into the void