No reason. No way. Not Me!

I watch these people work their part time jobs. They are tired and slow. I live in America, the midwest to be more specific. It helps alot being black in Missouri, I’m real help for a welp. (Sarcasm, for those of you who don’t notice the tone in these words) I wanted to be a writer, a farmer, a fitness advocate, and A weed grower. This probably won’t happen due to greed and people being being complacent about it. I honestly thought about being a professional killer, theif, outlaw kinda shit. To revolt against the established unofficial machine. It wouln’t have been much fun after a few sporadic ventures. People are idiots, they are born that way by default. Fear seems to increase from a catalyst of poor situations, rolling down the hill a they try to make up for it. I’m currently homeless, part time job, start a full time (luck) on Monday. I am sleep deprived at the moment, ya know with homelessness being a crime and all. I don’t want to be here anynore, I could do it, effortlessly. My sisters need help and I vowed to be there for them whenever they need it. Damn my morale, damn my convictions to kindness. I guess it all has to end one day. I just don’t want this shit to kill me. I’d rather do it myself.