I’m done tracking days, and also I decided every day is a bit much…. As these stopped taking 15 minutes along time ago and started eating an hour or so…. Which is fine….. I want to at least get to 100 this year though, which should be easy enough…. maybe next year I can aim for 200? but I have decided one every other day or so will be good…. at least 3 per week should get me to 100 this year right? ^_^ right?
Also missinglink (I think that’s your name) I did make myself some eggfried rice tonight, and it was quite lovely (well it still is I’m sure, I didn’t eat all of it…. I did make 2 cups of rice…. that’s more than a day of food there -_- so I has a thing for tomorrow ^_^)
welp here is this time, I actually like it a lot for some reason which is weird for me, I like the imagery in it a lot…. I normally hate anything I do -_- odd….
The ground shakes plate tectonics
We’re shaving flakes of onyx
Gritting teeth, Chew on sand
Deep beneath the taste is bland
But our greed devours it
Then we bleed and cower, shit
It is simply just pathetic
How we pray, apologetic
Beg forgiveness, dear creator
Feed me now, and feed me later
Keep me alive on a respirator
Keep feeding our excavator
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Hello lovely, I was thinking about you yesterday. Glad you’ve been cooking and that you are eating better. I like the rhythmic ‘edge’ of this piece this would be perfect for spoken word kinda like hip hop got me thinking of the Wu Tang Clan.. You got the power of ‘Wu’ gurl! Seriously, glad you’re okay. And again I love this.
I also ate some hamburger today too (found some pre old meat in the back of the freezer yesterday but anything tastes okay with enough seasoning) and some beef tenderloins yesterday…. My hands hate me so very much for washing dishes so often though -_-
Get yourself some rubber gloves! You need a nice soothing hand cream. Is there a specific one that is good for you or you like? Let me send some to you, I can send you some chocolate as well you deserve a treat you’ve been living off rice and noodles.. Perhaps I could send you some spices/ things for your cupboard what do you like? I’m serious. I like the idea of having a pen-pal ^_^
yeah…. I’m really weird about accepting things like that -_- sorry :/ It is nice of you to offer though….
I do probably need to get a lotion too, I technically can I do has the funds…. But I’m always afraid of buying lotion (I worry that people are going to think that I’m doing things with it….)
And trust me, once I finally leave the house I am going to has a treat…. The treat will be greasy and have the ability to slowly kill me ^_^ (I have a horrible love of fast food)
I do has tons of spices though, I kind of inherited them…. Like some came when my grandmother died (and my father was never going to use them over at their house) and a few I grabbed from my mother when she moved (she didn’t want them) so I do have the capability to feel fancy and pretentious *horrible posh British accent* “Why yes, I should place some rosemary in that rice, maybe some thyme too.” -_- I should get some chocolate the next time I leave the house too…. My food situation is mostly just because I haven’t left the house for a bit over a week now…. And had spent all of last week’s money on Wednesday. -_-
A pen-pal would be kind of cool…. but I do sort of hope you don’t mean physical letters as I hate giving people my address as I worry they may come bother me, and my home is meant to be safe from that…. -_- also I really hate paper…. It makes me want to pull my teeth out with pliers -_-
it puts the lotion in the basket, online, and it orders the lotion online
that way people don’t know you are buying lotion much less what you’d might do with it
online shopping is such a wonderful comfort, and the added avoidance/anonymity from “judgemental” stares and thoughts about one’s purchase is a nice bonus
my grandmother used to use glycerine for her hands when doing dishes, but probably because she was “old school”, never used the rubber gloves we got her lol
now she got a dishwasher, still uses the glycerine, old habits die hard i guess, but nice soft hands
But the people at my bank would be able to know and think things about it…. And pre-paid debit card things are not worthwhile due to the fee -_- However I guess I have ordered worse things online, I should do that once I put money into my checking account -_-
I do hate stores…. I tend to go to walmart at around 3am for most of my shopping, and hygiene things are the worst things to buy…. Like body soap, shampoo…. Razors are pre bad to buy, I won’t do that during hot weather at all…. and lotion is something I’ve never bought before…. -_-
I hate the idea of rubber gloves, they’d get dirty too quickly….
My hands become dry way too easily, even when I wasn’t washing dishes (when I was like 8) they have always become really dry during winter and crack open and bleed…. has been every winter since then really…. -_- I’m kind of used to it by now…. Lotion helps a bit, but still would be pre dry even when I was forced to put lotion on them like 6-10 times per day (when I was younger…. my mother made me, and also my school enforced it too)
I’ve been using canola oil, which has been helping a lot actually -_- and is cheap at least. ^_^
the bank usually can’t see “what” you bought, only where, unless it’s specifically listed on the bank statement, which in my many thousand online purchases, were very rare
so buying stuff from like Matas, it would just say “matas” 30 $/€/£, since they don’t get teh like full receipt, only the transaction id, which is more basic detail information
(true it could be looked up if someone really wanted to, but that would require some actual time and effort to go through, and i can guarantee you, the people at the bank don’t do that effort)
if your skin gets that dry have you ever gotten it checked out for eczema or psoriasis? my little sister needed some special prescription cremes to deal with hers when it became that bad, because that wasn’t just regular dryness when it cracked
well it’s only my hands…. so it can’t be that bad…. I’ve never asked a doctor before…. I can’t go back to my old doctor though…. I’ve been hiding from them since I stopped taking my medicine -_-
True I know it kind of takes effort…. but it still bothers me…. although it should bother me the few times I’ve used my card for fast food -_- buying fastfood in general feels bad…. at least I didn’t make any of my $20+ fast food purchases with card (I do those with cash only) -_- those always feel really bad to buy….
sometimes it’s not bad to learn a little “narcissism”, not care what strangers think, despite being hard sometimes
eventually some time after i realized no one looks at my account unless i explicitly draws attention and ask for it, much less scrutinizes the transaction ID’s for the more detailed information, because they just don’t care about my account, much less me (not that thats bad in this scenario lol) always been wonderful to just be able to buy anything and everything, knowing no one knew what i was getting, even a slight satisfaction in the post/deliveryman’s curiosity “what’s in the package today”
“hehe, you will never know!”, and off back into my hiding cave and unpack all the goodies that know one will ever know I’ve got,
my little secrets, my precious
yeah I know nobody will ever know about them…. but I am horribly paranoid -_-
Also stores shouldn’t be that bad…. it’s not like any of those people know me (I go at times where it isn’t likely that I will encounter people that I know) so I shouldn’t worry. Online shopping is easier though you are right…. still lotion seems like a weird thing to buy in general, it’s not a super exciting purchase…. I really don’t spring for the practical very often…. Probably explains the lack of not rice and eggs in my house -_- as when I do practical I do very practical -_-
i think stores can be really awful especially when you sorta have to go the the same places over and over, then some people do seem to start notice
so it can be nice to sneak in purchases in some inconspicuous way
I feel more weird if i run out and feel like i “have” to buy lotion when doing certain groceries, then it just seems like “well that guy is obviously a freak”
where as doing the whole cabinet at once, seems more legit, toilet paper, shampoo, toothpaste, deodorant, lotion, floss, soap, drain cleaner, balm, so on, then it’s like, “try discerning which of these items i’m gonna be freakish with now lady!”
but the odd weirdly judgmental cashier/checkout lady, really made it too uncomfortable at times,
“what i’m not allowed to buy a pine apple without you looking at me all weird”, or “wtf is now wrong with 2 cartons of milk, can i only buy one to be rid of the judgemental look, or must i buy exactly 3½?”, and of course buying “unhealthy” stuff, when its one of those little prissy ones, “yes i know marshmallows and soda are bad, but so is your spray tan and makeup!”
online shopping is just so much more wonderful and stress free, and depending on options and stores, even some more sensible and practical choices than the local store might have offered on the shelves.
and door delivery is just even more perfect for the lazy moments in life 🙂
I only go to stores with a self service line option now…. and I can’t buy that many things at once, my arms can’t carry them…. and I do refuse to use a cart…. However I do have a friend I bring to the store with me sometimes, for when I do want to buy more than I can carry, then I can just pretend that the cart is his…. -_- it works out…. :/
Hahaha okay calm down dont worry I’m not coming for you- chance’d be a fine thing as I rarely leave my own flat lol >_< but I understand. I like the idea of writing actual letters, since my great grandfather died I dont write any more. But you are welcome to my email address if you are comfortable with that? Are you British or are you taking the piss?! Haha I live in Bristol. Lol its fine if you are I take the piss out of this nation all the time, we ain't nothing to be proud of- still just another bit of land riddled with humans..
Yes I was indeed taking the piss ^_^ I’m a filthy american (from the states) so you shouldn’t worry….. is why I specified horrible accent…. Since I don’t actually have a British accent…. I actually have a bit of an accent from eastern washington state (the pacific northwest as we call it) so my a’s come out weirdly sometimes…. I have it a lot less than a lot of people I noticed (my e’s are so much cleaner than theirs are) which I assume is because I spent like 5 years or so with speech therapy so was taught most of my spoken language with fairly standard and boring pronunciations…. So my spoken language has very little spice to it sadly 🙁
I will email you (the one attached to your account right?) the post would be super expensive to actually do the letter thing…. And plus you wouldn’t be able to read my handwriting 😛 it sucks…. it kind of have evolved to a point where it is very arguable that I’m not using english symbols anymore….. I can read it with ease though at least -_-
@Snorlax HAHAHA I actually just spat tea every where. LOL
i gotta stop making you pee and spit everywhere, else i might risk receiving a cleaning bill one day 😉
But seriously who masturbates with lotion??! Too many chemicals. That is what lube is for. Be kind to your willy!
I personally use vick’s vapor rub…. ^_^
HA! Vicks vapour rub LMAO..
yeah its mintberrycrrrunch @ gmail .com wizzout ze gaps.. True about mail.
your pic is of Espeon, how do you get Eevee’s on Moon? Are they just wonder trade? Cannot seem to find them which is really irritating I know they are there somewhere 🙁
I has no clue…. I don’t has a 3ds -_- and if I did then pokemon would eat all of time….
And yes vapor rub 😛 it stings in the most pleasant of ways…. I recommend starting with toothpaste though, it’s much more mild and washes off easier…. And I had already sent an email…. I just grabbed the one from comments ^_^ (is a creepy stalker…. but this site allows it)
if you really want a nice stinging sensation, you should try Tiger Balm,
the strong version even burns so much you won’t even have to shave or wax down there
not that I do shave or wax down there anyway -_-
that’s interesting…. does it wash off easily? or does it quickly soak into skin? I found out I kind of dislike things that soak into skin, at least if they aren’t mild enough for me to shrug off once I’m done…. I learned that when I tried hotsauce…. it was a lot of fun, but I am not doing that again, and if I do I am going to have milk in the house, and disposable cups…. -_- it didn’t come off in the bath like everything else I had used up to that point…. And it was a more intense feeling too though, which sucks since it doesn’t stop…. I wish that it would stop easily and quickly as then it’d be a lot of fun -_-
Coconut Oil is good for your skin and you can buy it in the same aisle as Canola Oil. It’s good for your skin, your hair, for cooking, for greasing squeaky door hinges. . . and now that i’m actually reading the rest of your post, I am certain it could be used in many different ways for all.
Regarding anonymity, you can buy an Amazon gift card and then use that to buy stuff online. No one needs to know for whom or what purpose you’re making purchases. They’re process is as automated and non-human as it gets. As far as anyone thinking thoughts about your thoughts? You don’t have to take ownership of that shit.
I hope you can find a doctor that is willing to work with you to find a regimen that helps you enjoy more freedom and life moments. I hate you being your own prisoner.
from what I understand most oils have the same benefit for your skin, so I just go with canola because it’s the only one that I can somewhat tolerate the smell of (all the others make me want to vomit) I just have to be careful to rinse off my skin after a while of letting them stay as they can clog pours and such it seems….
yeah I could do that I guess -_-
Nice poem glad your keeping up I think you went up to day 8 or 9 now your just on no count cool hope your eating over there I remember you mentioning a lot of snow. Glad we have missinglink to give u tips on household recipes she’s the best. Anyways thx for the poem
yeah counting day was too stressful -_-
yeah still lots of snow, and I’m not going anywhere in it -_-
It would be rather pitiful if you didn’t put any effort into writing them. I still don’t think white guys can rap well… :p.
well is a good thing that I don’t even try then 😛
and to be totally fair to these white guys that you speak of, you don’t think anybody raps well -_-
Keep going 😀
I shall try….
How has you been doing ghost giraffe?
Hmm, ok but scared ( ref post). And you?
Wowow this thread is about lotions now
Just reading because as usual I have seen over 3 yrs that people here are much better at writing and conversation than what I am…
Nah, you’re pre good at writing and conversation….. And you’re certainly not even the worst here…. And I know that you’re better than people I know who are not here…. Like seriously I’ve met people who can’t spell the word “meow” and thought that “brick” rhymed with “frying pan” -_- those aren’t even close -_-
Lololol the last part idk if I should laugh I feel bad but that’s funny
I’m a bit too mean to him sometimes…. but texting with him basically gives me cancer…. this is all one person actually -_- I normally don’t mention anything to him at all…. As it would be mean to -_-
But it is actually funny and kind of cute (sorry Zet, I think he’s a little bit cute -_-)
Yes, was sort of thinking the same… umm… like the context.
uh, I don’t make any sense. I’ll shush
it’s okay you don’t has to shush when you’re not making sense…. ^_^
well my only friends (and I don’t have many) exist online and I must say I don’t like texting/writing either cuz I feel misunderstandings happen, and people take things the wrong way, but if you can see and hear someone then you can see more of them and body language blahblah
I do better with texting…. I don’t read body language well at all -_- and I get more easily misunderstood in person, and am less likely to speak in general…. Online is safe and such, I like it a lot ^_^
Yup, much safer, I think that’s the main advantage for me. Don’t need to worry about being stalked or anything (I do not have much of an online presence… cant see the point, also, identity theft anyone? 😛 ). Don’t need to worry about possibly farting in front of others either… last part was kinda a joke ofc everyone farts but they are not all heard…
I think people tend to share alot more things about themselves online. On the other hand, sometimes I feel that talking in text doesn’t feel real, or feels like talking to a machine, I feel fucked up now
well I’m not afraid of being stalked…. I am sort of the stalker more or less (on accident) I worry more about the person possibly hugging me or something fucked up like that -_- and yeah can be more comfortable too, I don’t have to shower and such to hang out with people online, or even get properly dressed it’s a huge advantage ^_^
I don’t at all have that problem, well maybe I do, but it’s not a bad thing for me…. it’s less stressful overall for me…. Honestly i would prefer to talk to a machine -_-
36-13 Atlanta over Seattle late in the 4rth.
Let’s stick a fork in this turkey and call it “done”.
Iris, you need to start rapping some of these.
I hate my voice -_-
There’s always autotune.
No, just not -_-
And Morris is dissing your state! I sense a rap battle is about to erupt!
Not dissing at all, I’m pulling for the Seahags. 🙂
They need The Lord Jesus Christ to step in with a miracle at this point.
(Sadly, I think Jesus is a New England supporter though).
Fuck my state ^_^
I don’t actually follow football at all, or really any sport it’s pre boring…. isn’t this playoffs or is it like week 15 or 16? (I don’t know)
Did you hear that Iris?! Seahags! AND he doubts our lord and savior, Jesus Christ, will help! You can act like you don’t care, but I see the rage in your words!
super rage, I’m just so upset…. 😀
grrrrrrrr
You gotta freestyle your way back to the top!
Playoffs now.
Hunter S. Thompson had a great suicide note. It was called “Football Season is Over”. (Google it if you feel like it, and read about his life).
I don’t think anyone (from America) should kill themselves until after the Superbowl. You should wait until the second week of February before offing yourself. Hope exists as long as your team has a chance.
Having said that, I’m glad I didn’t bet on today’s game. I was sure Seattle was gonna stomp on Atlanta but that didn’t happen. (Thankfully I didn’t bet so I didn’t lose any money). Oh well.
Houston @ Foxborough next.
@pluto But I’m clearly on the top right now….
@morris, I don’t really have a team right now so I am free to off myself whenever I see fit 😛 really if you wanted to wait until after the superbowl you could argue that there’s one next year, and you should still have hope…. So does that mean you can never kill yourself then? O.o So the hawks are out of it now, welp that sucks for them…. But I guess making it to playoffs is still pre decent, it’s been like what 4 years in a row now? or something?
I plan on killing myself every February, actually. But then I realize: there’s always next year! And what do you mean: you’re already on top? Just because you’re on top of the US map doesn’t mean you’re on top of the hip-hop game!
But it does though, Hip hop totally lives in the west 😛 IDK what you’re talking about -_-
Shit…
I don’t think anyone should kill themselves unless they have a good reason to do so.
What does that mean, a “good reason to die”?
Well, if the team you’ve supported your entire life moves from San Diego to the evil city of Los Angeles, I’d say all hope is lost.
Honestly, how can life get any worse? (it can’t). This is my own personal 9-11, but don’t worry. I’m gonna jump ship and become a Green Bay Packers fan now.
– moment of silence-.
RIP, San Diego Chargers. I once loved you, now you’re dead to me.
Rot in hell, Dean Spanos.
*pats morris on the back* it’ll be okay…. LA is scummy…. Nobody likes it…..
True, I’d rather cut off one of my fingers than go back to LA.
I’d rather cut off my nose 😛
Yeah, then you wouldn’t have to inhale as much of the polluted air.
Thanks y’alll.
Wisconsin has slightly better weather than hell 5 months out of the year, right?
I wouldn’t have to smell the polluted air that way 😛
5 months is almost half of the year at least ^_^
Heh, yup.
I just read your poem.
Excavator and creator rhymes.
Same with later and respirator.
Hmm. So God works in construction and wants people to hold their breath?
Is God an underwater welder?
Your poem was deep. I have no idea what it means. Is God searching for buried treasure on the beach?
clearly god is searching for buried treasure on the beach…. ^_^
That’s some real west-coast shit right there, Iris.
The rainy beaches of Seattle 😛
Mmm, sounds nice.
I think that Zeke (the band from Seattle, WA) is possibly the most under-rated band of all time. Google “West Seattle Acid Party” (by Zeke) for proof.
This world sucks; none of us asked to be born, we’re all gonna die, so we should eat sushi as often as possible.
(Maybe that didn’t make sense. If not, when did you last enjoy sushi? Sushi makes life tolerable on this god-forsaken, desolate planet spinning around in a far-flung section of the cosmos). (Aliens only visit when they’re looking for cattle to mutilate).
Hmm, an interesting track indeed. Now I can only imagine listening to that song while on acid and eating sushi.
I ate sushi on Wednesday of last week (the 4th) which was what I spent the bit of money I had left on…. but I has more money now once I leave the house -_-
@Empty Pluto; You seem familiar.
Have we mated?
(My memory is terrible, please forgive me).
Yes, we’ve been mating since 2014, I believe. Or maybe 2015…
In the interest of full disclosure, I don’t have fallopian tubes, a uterus, or a womb. My tits aren’t porn-worthy either.
If you’re a guy we haven’t been “mating”, (unless you have super low standards you masturbate to). 🙂
No offense.
Oh, I see. Then we have been interacting. That sounds more appropriate. And no one ever needed “porn-worthy tits”.
I feel like you two have interacted before….. I swear I’ve seen both of you in the same thread many times….
Yeah, those were some of my all-time favorite conversations on this site.
Morris always makes things a lot more interesting…. I really like that time when he once thought I was a girl 😛
Haha, determining gender is sometimes difficult on this site.
well determining gender is hard in general…. I really haven’t actually quite managed to do that myself yet…. -_-