I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t do anything productive. I can’t get a job. My mind is jumbled mess of thoughts. I can barely think straight anymore, unless I distract myself with something. I’ve been depressed and suicidal since I was 14 and I’m 20 now. I’ve gone to a psychiatrist, therapy, taken pills, but none of it helped and after half a year of telling everyone what they wanted to hear they said I was better and didn’t need any help any longer. I have no idea what to do anymore, and I’ve already forgotten about halve the stuff I was thinking about while writing this.
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Hey man, your not alone there at all. I’m 20 (bout to be 21) and I can’t even get a job, I feel so hopeless the struggle is intense going through the motions. My Mom wants me to go to a psychiatrist but I don’t know if it’ll help as I get really awkward talking about my problems plus I’ll probably just do what you did and tell em what they want to hear. I hate not knowing what to do I wish I just knew what I was supposed to do with my life then maybe I wouldn’t feel so down. What are some things you use to distract yourself with? I either Jet Ski or play some video games online.
I usually distract myself with games as well, and also Books, movies, tv. Whenever I distract myself I immediately forget about everything else that troubles me, but when I stop I usually just feel even worse so I immediately try and distract myself again. I feel pretty much the same way you do I have no idea what to do anymore or where I can even go from here.
Hey, I’m not trying to chase you around or anything, I’m just letting u know I replied to both ur posts & u’r more than welcome if you wish to talk… we can try to look for answers to ur questions together… tc
Hey again,
I’m so sorry
I thought you were someone else
The names were very similar
Please accept my apology
However I’v just replied to your other post
& I do hope you could give me a chance
& that we could talk
but I hope more that you can find your way out of this pain safely
& without leaving us
all the best
@WhySkyHigh
I know this will probably sound weird
but since it’s May
I just wanted to say I’m really glad u’r still here…
Please, if you can
stay with us
I am clueless. Been in therapy off and on for 25 years. No therapy, no meds, no hospitalization has “fixed” me. I used to always tell the absolute truth. Just started lying recently because I feel hopeless.
Had a couple therapists abuse the relationship with me and that adds so many more problems. The emotional pain is so bad… it is oppressive.
That stinks. I don’t think I know you.
Just found the site several hours ago. I put up one rambling post and a few comments. Nice to see my thoughts and struggles are not as unique as my family made me out to be.
Don’t get me started on friends and family. They can be very dismissive. Either because they are afraid of saying the “wrong” thing and sending us over the edge, or because they don’t feel “qualified” (or guilty). My mother refers to antidepressants and antianxiety meds as “nutcase medicine”. So yeah, sometimes family are more hurtful than helpful.
Let me guess: you were looking up suicide methods and found us?
Yep. I was looking up the lethal dosage info for the several full bottles of psych meds I have stashed.
If 8000mg of something barely effect a rat… I doubt it will do much to my fat butt!! It is easier in this state to get shot by a cop. One white cop was just acquitted for shooting down an unarmed black man. Guess I gotta go outside more.
Suicide by cop? Yikes!
They are trained to shoot until the threat is no longer. Often it means fatal for that person. I have thought of it often since I saw it on TV. Sometimes I feel desperate enough.
No, I get it. There are better ways. Never attempt when you feel desperate. Desperation is a feeling that passes. Don’t do anything unless you have thought it through thoroughly.
I’m 23 and this is where I’m at as well. The mind being a jumbled mess and the forgetting screws up your perception of life and reality. I wanna die everyday
I still think you should have your meds checked out by another shrink.
I’m older than you guys, and already i feel obsolete. Is it wrong that i’m sligntly jealous of all you young en’s?
I tell you something though, i don’t know how it feels to be young in this society nowadays, it must be confusing as fuck. I look at the world nowadays and it seems so surreal. To know no different than this modern smartphone life , where viral videos that the whole world can laugh at how you made a mistake, is horrifying.
If smartphones, modern internet had been around when i was young, i can guarentee you, i’d probably be 1 million plus views, youtube fuck up lol.
Bet you are NOT older!
Definitely not older 🙂
All the best for u
[I came across posts with OPs of really advanced ages… have hope]
Best to you, too, Farah.