Exactly, it feels the same because it’s just like every other day. Time is a continuous line, not dots on a chart. It’ll be ok, just take it easy today. Ah, happy to “see see” me?
I’m alright. Just thinking how “lucky” we are to be alive.
Yeah, I don’t know. Maybe it can be alright. Or it can devolve into him complaining about how he misses being in a relationship and having sex, and then him saying that he’s better off without a relationship. I’m always willing to listen to people, but yeah.
Nah, it doesn’t irritate me. I guess it’s just meh, it tires me. I feel literally more tired after that. So, yeah. I’ll think about it, at least it doesn’t always happen.
It’s understandable that you’re still anxious. Do you still have the strawberry ice cream? That can be a nice treat. Or if it’s nice outside you can go to the river, oooor if you’re feeling sort of creative you can go that route.
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🙂 hi
… Hello Ms Black
How are you this morning?
Well, weirded out that 30 feels the same as yesterday, nervous that something will set me off into some crazy spiral, annnnnd happy to see you.
How are you? What’s on your mind?
Exactly, it feels the same because it’s just like every other day. Time is a continuous line, not dots on a chart. It’ll be ok, just take it easy today. Ah, happy to “see see” me?
I’m alright. Just thinking how “lucky” we are to be alive.
Yes, to see see you, but also always glad you’re here. Which sounds effed up because this is a suicide site, but you help me a lot.
Oh? Just that? :p
Are there any feelings attached to that thought?
O ok… I’m glad to hear that. Yeah, it’s sorta effed up, but I understand. You help me as well.
Ha… no I guess not just that.
No, I’m kinda ambivalent about it.
You look Familiar, you know?
What are your plans for today?
I can’t explain it… but I feel like I actually know you.
Is that weird?
Oh… the world is most definitely strange.
Nah, just mostly work and nothing much else. My friend asked me if I wanted to go out with him, but I’m still thinking about it.
And you?
That’s sort of weird… because that’s impossible. However, you also feel familiar to me. So, I know what you’re talking about.
Strange indeed 🙂
Do you not feel like going out?
So strange…
Yeah, I don’t know. Maybe it can be alright. Or it can devolve into him complaining about how he misses being in a relationship and having sex, and then him saying that he’s better off without a relationship. I’m always willing to listen to people, but yeah.
That sounds like fuuuuun :3
Does it irritate you? Does it bore you? Or just… meh?
Ha, yes, the fun is boundless.
Nah, it doesn’t irritate me. I guess it’s just meh, it tires me. I feel literally more tired after that. So, yeah. I’ll think about it, at least it doesn’t always happen.
I feel drained after most my “social outings” (when they occur), so I can relate to that.
Do you ever open up to him about stuff?
Yeah, it’s rare for me to find a person who actually “energizes” me after an interaction.
Rarely, and almost never about the really “deep” stuff. I guess that’s absurd considering that he’s my only friend.
Ditto.
Is there a reason why you don’t really open up to him?
I don’t know… I just don’t feel the need, if that makes sense.
Yeah it does
Aye, I don’t know what I want to do today… still have anxiety you know? Don’t know where to focus it.
It’s understandable that you’re still anxious. Do you still have the strawberry ice cream? That can be a nice treat. Or if it’s nice outside you can go to the river, oooor if you’re feeling sort of creative you can go that route.
Sitting on my back deck now, cozy in the sun.
Are you still trying to get some work done? Is it still rainy?
That sounds pleasant.
Yeah, I’m still trying to work. Trying being the key word here. It’s still super overcast, but it isn’t raining.
>.< nope.
Sometimes I'm dumb.
No, it’s ok. I wouldn’t call it dumb. Maybe spontaneous is a better word.
Regardless, I still remember how you look…
Yeah… impulsive.
Aye.
Thanks, for tugging me back
Well, I guess that works too. Anyway, it isn’t set in stone.
Aye indeed.
No problem Ms Black. I will always be more than willing to give you a nudge or tug.
Barely anything is– “set in stone”
Exactly, for good or bad.