Hi. I just wanted to get my thoughts off and just rant. Anyone else think the house is just a prison? Your parents just owners? Granted that depends on who you have as parents, so it begs the question, if they aren’t doing their job properly in raising a child, why even have one? Like why have children only to condemn them and never support or encourage them? I’m not asking much, there’s certain responsibilities they obviously need to fulfill due to the child’s inability to look after themselves, such as picking them up from school when they’re young. Other than that, anything negative that comes from the parents’ existence towards the child such as their opinions or whatever is just completely unnecessary. It’s not like I wanted to be born in the first place. And I’m certainly not blaming my parents cause hey, they’re not perfect, they weren’t raised perfect, but it seriously seems a bit fked up that I have to keep my mouth shut and not defy them in any way or “put them in their place” or I risk getting kicked out of the house, or just splitting one of the two parents just because they can’t take it anymore. And for the most part, I need shelter and food. We already have public education hell bent on killing the kids’ creativity and intelligence, but to come home just to be told & condemned that the thing you like doing is meaningless, is just absolutely absurd. And yes just because they say “we support you in anything you do”, does not necessarily mean it’s true, especially if they do the complete opposite to the kid on a day to day basis. Just wtf do you think the kid will be doing if they’re not doing what they like? Ding ding, you guessed it. Nothing. Eventually thoughts of suicide and feelings of depression come in. Nowadays it’s even more easier to have a career in really anything because of the internet, so who says you can’t be well off pursuing video games, making videos, making comics, etc? Everything I took interest in.. only to be condemned. Now forced to go to college and for what? I don’t know what I want to do in college. I don’t know if I get that slightly-more-thick-than-average paper at the end of 4 years, I’ll get a decent job. Why even put it all in one basket for something ethereal in the air that takes place 4 years in the future, when life is happening right now? I know what I want to do right now, I have my goals and aspirations, and I’m serious about them, but I can’t live on if everyday I’m being condemned and told that thing I’m pursing is useless. I don’t want to be a victim, and I don’t blame anyone for my current situation. I control my own life, but even then, there are times I see everything grim.
And I still have this hollow chest.
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My parents owned four children.
My parents had three, and two of them are for sure screwed up. There’s no going back at this point. I feel like most parents don’t know what they’re doing, and don’t think a lot through before having kids. I kind of wish less people had kids. It’s such a pain, we’re already overpopulated, and if you aren’t capable, you’re just going to screw up someone’s life.
Agreed: Usually don’t know what they are doing, sure as hell don’t think it through. Less kids would be good for the kids. Sucks to think that a few too many drinks, or some starry eyed notion about having children can put one of us on earth for decades of struggle.
Agreed #2. Parents have kid for selfish reasons. Lots of it. That’s where they fuck up. Thinking about themselves as they bring a life into the world, and thinking THAT NEW LIFE unconditionally BELONGS to them. It’s the reason why we were treated like belongings. There’s this saying I heard from a TV show “As the child turns 1 years old, the parent is also 1 years old, when the child turns 5 years old, the parent is also 5 years old” basically saying.. parents grow with their child. If you think about it, new parents start off with no experience raising anyone and is experience growth with their child. That’s usually the point for good parents who were prepared but the selfish and ignorant ones never gets it. They don’t grow, instead it’s their kids who would surpass them in growth. From my observations, abused kids usually end up highly intelligent, kind, and wise although all that with a broken heart and damaged self-esteem, it’s a twisted combo really.
That said.. @ hollowchest, You’ve surpassed your parents in every way, they are narcissist and it’s not your fault! You are in fact highly intelligent, kind, and wise and i’m sorry but your parents will never have the capacity to understand and realize that fact because they are too absorbed in themselves and all they can see is themselves and they only regard you as an NPC in their game. My parents were exactly like yours, I’ve gone through it all too.. and I’m over them. I realized that even though they were always physically there, I was an orphan from birth, unloved and unwanted. You are too. I’m sorry but they don’t deserve you. You are such a waste on them. It’s your turn to abandon them, emotionally.
Some people shouldn’t be allowed to have kids at all. People think that emotional abuse is somehow okay, I can guarantee those kids will grow up very depressed and lost later in life.