I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s like there is more than one soul in me. I have to make a choice, either be too kind and suffer the consequences or be heartless and later come crashing down. I could also just stay the way I am right now but the thing is I don’t feel fine. I could never stay like this. Ignoring the way I feel is killing me. I’m just tired and sick of this life. I feel so selfish, I have everything I need to be able to survive yet I’m still depressed. I just can’t go back. Summer is almost over and school is close but I don’t think I will be able to make it. It is the same routine daily for four more years, I just can’t, I can’t. I’m still young but I feel so lost. I have to make so many decisions that will change my life and build my future, that’s if I have a future.