Goodbye : )

Dear Suicide project , I’m sure some of you may remember me. Possibly not , I don’t know. Either way , my name is chance. I have decided to die tonight. I am truly sorry but this world is not for me. My original plan was to slowly kill myself by going overboard on drugs and alcohol and to try to make the last moments with my family count in between. Well , you can probably guess that I’d didn’t quite work. My family has become increasingly distant(as they have always been getting for years now because of me)and I just can’t seem to be able to do it anymore. I thought that if I spent some valuable time with my family , that things would get better but my Severe Clinical Depression has me to where I can’t even do it anymore. Now , before you go labeling me as a horrible junkie alcoholic person , hear me out. The only reason I even started doing this is because I was trying to force myself to have a good time with weed and alcohol but even that doesn’t work anymore. I tried antidepressants too but they wear off so quickly , a few days , that there is no point. I have done everything in my willpower to keep on going , especially for God and the ones I love , but nothing works anymore. Talking doesn’t even help. That’s the last resort. I tried. I honestly swear to God , I did , but it just doesn’t work. So I have taken some alcohol and have taken an overdose. This WILL be it , Hopefully. I have tried but the constant , extreme , suicidal thoughts , impulses , and depression has made it too hard. I have tried everything. I am so sorry. Please forgive me. I wish you all the best. May your lives be as happy as I wish mine would have been. God bless you ! ?