Can barely get out of bed, don’t want to do my job anymore. I just wanna lay in bed, fall asleep and not wake up. Ever. I don’t wanna live to see another pointless morning. Every part of me is useless and I can’t do anything. How do people motivate themselves to stay busy the whole day, scheduling every part of their day every day? I can’t. I just can’t.
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The prospect of having a family is motivation enough for me. I don’t care if I have to learn Polish and move to the other side of the world to find a decent family oriented woman, I’ll do it.
I’d say look to the future, but it sounds like you’re stuck in the quagmire of today.
Someone posted Jordan Peterson a few pages back, maybe watch a speech of his. He’s generally not wrong in his analyses, though a little whimsical.
You never know, you just may find love on the other side of the world. I know a guy that met a girl who lived in Lithuania and married her.
Personally the idea of starting my own family is exhausting and just so wrong for me. The one thing I can’t complain about in my life is the fact that I have nobody to answer to when I come home. No responsibilities to any husband or kids. I’m open to finding love, maybe that would motivate me to do things. but we can’t share a living space. It would just be a disaster.
That’d be nice..
So here’s a thought, and hopefully you aren’t the type that is offended by this sort of thing, but you mention how pointless life is – the monotony of it and how nothing matters. Have you ever considered that there may be a link between the emptiness you feel and how you feel about having a family of your own?
This is totally understandable with someone who id undergoing depression. Depression = low energy and often times make you not want to do anything. I’ve been in your shoes so I can totally emphathize. What you need is someone to help and talk to you with your troubles. I hope you seek help, I’m serious. Isolating one’s self willl just worsen things and your mind will play tricks on you leading to suicide.
I know the feeling too well. I do get these weird periods of positivity though, like sometimes for a few hours, I get a burst of energy and actually want to go out and do stuff, but that’s always followed by feeling even worse. Do you ever experience that?
What I really hate, is that people don’t get it. Everyone’s always taking it personally when I tell them I’m not in the mood for going out, and then they assume I don’t want to be friends with them. And I just can’t make myself get out of bed.