Family2

I am getting yelled at left and right for not waking up early, for not being productive, for not doing enough of this and that. What part of CHRONIC FATIGUE do they not get? It’s not like I CHOOSE to be so tired I can barely go and shower and change my underwear, let alone be out and about doing this this and that. ESPECIALLY since they disturb my sleep in the morning, EVERY morning. If I am TIRED, I don’t have any energy to do anything. Then I get yelled at for rolling back into bed, because I’m so tired that’s all I can do.

The thing is, they do know that I am sick. So what part of being sick and being really fatigued is that hard to understand? Like, really? I mean, she literally sees me coughing EVERY day. On top of my being chronically sick the past 10 years.

It’s simple: Sick –> tired –> don’t have energy to do things +
No sleep –> MORE tired

Especially when they purposely disturb my sleep in the morning. Every morning. They think that if they make all that noise, it’ll force me to “go to bed earlier and thus, wake up earlier.”

Yeah, except people can’t CHOOSE to be tired, and yet be unable to fall asleep. If going to bed earlier means being able to sleep and wake up earlier, then literally MILLIONS of people who have insomnia around the world would not have chronic insomnia. But no, all we have to do is “go to bed earlier.” It’s so simple. We’re all just too stupid to just “go to bed earlier.” Someone needs a nobel prize for this amazing discovery. Because problem solved!

Oh, and of course, she bad mouths me and talks behind my back to EVERYONE. How I’m too lazy to do this and that, etc.

I am specifically here to get medical treatment, for my autoimmune issues and for my feet. And they know that. But still it’s “why don’t you go do this, why don’t you go do that, why can’t you just go to bed earlier,” etc etc.

They wake me up in the morning, then get all pissy at me for being tired the rest of the day.