all i do now is bs my homework for grueling AP classes i barely care about or fall behind and get chewed out by my parents who i hate to disappoint, but i’m a disappointment anyway i guess lmao what else is new right
my family and friends might love me but i’m starting not to care anymore because i just hate myself so much and become so jealous of their flourishing lives that i’m pretty sure if i were to show how i really feel to other people i’d truly be the burden i believe myself to be deep down
i’m just surviving day by day at this point and i can hardly look forwards to things i usually would be ecstatic about
i feel like i can’t tell anyone
i feel so trapped
i’m so tired
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Hello. I barely try to come on this site and I actually just made an account today so I could comment on this and vent about my problems. But, i’m getting side tracked, I wanted to say thank you. And I know that sounds quite selfish of me to take comfort knowing that I’m not alone but I undersnd you- especially on the AP level classes thing. Also, the whole thing about hating yourself and envying those around you… it justvhits at home. I know this isn’t any advice but I hope you take confort in knowing that you’re not alone.
That actually does help a bit even though i genuinely wish neither one of us were forced through feeling like this… I may not know you in any other way (nor am i on here too often either), but i’m glad you stopped by to comment and help the both of us whether you realized the impact or not. It’s not selfish- I know I feel guilt over just trying to cope all the time, but it’s not selfish to vent about something relevant on a site built for that purpose at the very least. If anything I do can help another person, that’s a success to me and I’m sure you’re worth more than you realize, cliche as that may sound. We might not believe in positivity for ourselves no matter what we’re told and I get that, but at least we’re in this together, right? Sorry I’m kinda rambling now, just…. thank you, really.
I hope you eventually find comfort within yourself because you seem like an individual who can do great things. And don’t ever be sorry to speak your mind through rambling. I hope your days become more beautiful as you blossom and shine!
That actually does help a bit even though i genuinely wish neither one of us were forced through feeling like this… I may not know you in any other way (nor am i on here too often either), but i’m glad you stopped by to comment and help the both of us whether you realized the impact or not. It’s not selfish- I know I feel guilt over just trying to cope all the time, but it’s not selfish to vent about something relevant on a site built for that purpose at the very least. If anything I do can help another person, that’s a success to me and I’m sure you’re worth more than you realize, cliche as that may sound. We might not believe in positivity for ourselves no matter what we’re told and I get that, but at least we’re in this together, right? Sorry I’m kinda rambling now, just…. thank you, really.
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well shit looks like i barely know how to even use the damn interface here huh woohoooo