Only Thing

You idiot! Of course you need to put weight on others!! First of all, if that statement you made was true, you’d never have friend. If a friend only helps others but isn’t a burden at all, then the people putting burdens on you arent your friends, but your being a friend to them. That means your all alone. And then that means you wont place weight on anyone else you see as a friend, so you cant get help when you need it from the people closest to you!
That’s a terribly thought-out definition of friendship.

We’re all burdens. We need to be, we’re social creatures. The trick is to balance how much of a burden we are, and grow stronger in ourselves so that we wont always be a giant burden so it’s more manageable for others and we are strong enough to help them too. But we will always be a burden at some point, and that’s okay. That’s good! Hell, some people would give anything to have a burden! That means someone needs them, and they can be useful and helpful and have a sense of purpose. That’s a bit of an extreme case, but, burdens aren’t bad! We need them, just as much as we need to be one.

As for feeling like life is poking you with a stick and saying “do you get it yet? just leave!” while torturing you over and over~ that’s relatable. And only staying because you don’t want to harm others… Also relatable. But that’s surviving. That’s being alive. That ISN’T living, and you should be striving to live, not to die. I haven’t gotten there yet. I’m still thinking, deciding. Too damaged, and not ready. So I’m just alive. Sometimes we need time, but we should all at least start taking small steps towards really living.

As for people who don’t want you around… Well, I’m a random person on the net who wants you here. So surely there are others. You’re worth a lot more than you think. You have no idea what kind of impact you truly have on the world, because you’re blinded by your position in it. But, it’s significant.