I’ve been suicidal for around two decades now. I have always been social, but was very selective of whom I developed a genuine closeness with. That being said, my boyfriend and I were pretty much inseparable from the day we met. Five years later he died at the age of 35 from a freak accident. It absolutely blew my mind. And since the day he died (going on 3 years now), all I have wanted was for my life to be over as well. Can anyone relate?