i truly didn’t wanna kill myself for a while now. The idea was definitely appealing but I think I’m so close to ending it. My only good aspect of my life just left. The one person I wanted most & the only one I wanted & they don’t feel the same way. My whole future based around this idea of this one thing is shattered & it was the only thing keeping me going this whole time. If I find an appealing way that I think I would like to end it all then I think I just might.