i truly didn’t wanna kill myself for a while now. The idea was definitely appealing but I think I’m so close to ending it. My only good aspect of my life just left. The one person I wanted most & the only one I wanted & they don’t feel the same way. My whole future based around this idea of this one thing is shattered & it was the only thing keeping me going this whole time. If I find an appealing way that I think I would like to end it all then I think I just might.
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I haven’t suffered as much as you… But you must be much stronger than I am if you’re still here after what you went through. I wish for you to realize your potential without this person you considered you anchor, to find your own way to keep your boat afloat.
You can do it!
– arius
Just remember that’s not the only person that will enter your life. It may feel like they were the only one, but from experience I can tell you that you will be suprised to find someone new can sweep you off your feet when you least expect it.
It’s weird to objectively know that you’re right on this, and at the same time to subjectively know that you’re wrong on this.
People come and go in our lives and it’s just something you have to accept or get used to. If you’re talking romantically, when I was younger I used to think the same that I’ll never have anyone as good as my last girlfriend but I’ve always found someone better.
Don’t forget the divorce rate is 50%, so even if you marry the man or woman of your dreams, there’s still a coin-toss chance it’ll not work out. It’s hard to find someone you could call your “soulmate.”
I think what’s more important is to work on just being a better version of yourself that would make you more of a catch than before. For instance, I was a skinny kid in high school but I decided to become well-built and that made me much more attractive to girls. Then I got my university degree and a decent job.
I think you get the idea. The more you bring to the table, the more the person you want would desire you. Just try not to get too hung up on one person, also remember they’re humans with their flaws. Perhaps in a few years, you’d be the one deciding they didn’t have the right qualities.
I used to think I was cool under pressure, but I learned that I had trouble handling my emotions in stressful situations, so I learned to get a grip on it and to try to always think through things rationally.
Had I been dating someone at the time I don’t think that girl would’ve liked that emotional side of me and it’s something I had to work on. I hope you get my point. And trust me there are definitely other fish in the sea, sometimes more beautiful and amazing than the last one you had, I’m talking from experience.