According to this website, it’s been 2 years since I had last written here. Reading my old posts here make me feel some strange type of way. I’m no longer living in the conditions I was, and I’m 19 turning 20 this year and a full-time university student at the university I almost killed myself over. I’m still alive.
I’m not better, but things improve slowly I made friends at university, my social anxiety improved a lot, but it’s not gone and it still cripples me occasionally. But I got help. For a while. I need to get it back again. I still suffer from OCD, but it’s not as bad as it was then. I’m happier now. I still get passively suicidal, but I don’t write letters anymore. Notes. I don’t research or try to overdose on pills. I just wanted to write this here because my worst moments seem to be written on this site I didn’t want the last thing I left on here to be a suicide note. A lot has changed in 2 years. I hope it doesn’t bother anyone that I posted this, I understand this site is for mostly actively suicidal people and when you feel like that positivity means nothing.