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Depression creeps upon you quietly.
At the very beginning you struggle with the little things, but usually, choose to ignore them.
It’s like a headache.
You’ll tell yourself it’s temporary and it’ll pass.
It’s just another bad day.
But it’s not.
You are stuck in this state of mind.
You get used to putting on a social mask and you continue to live among other people because that’s what you have to do.
That’s what others do.
However, the problem does not go away.
You struggle to put on a play every day and it starts to cost you more and more.
That is why you fall even deeper and that’s when you slowly start to back away from friends and family, sometimes completely shutting them out.
All satisfaction is gone.
The little things that used to bring you joy are now worthless.
Even the simplest tasks become painful.
And that is why you lack motivation.
Now… Why would you keep on trying if nothing makes you happy anyway?
All of this makes you feel even worse and you get caught up in a vicious circle.
Suddenly you find yourself living in slow motion.
Days become indistinguishable…
Just white noise, just… heaviness, filling your mind and spilling over your body.
You feel as though you’ll never be happy again.
You continue to back away and destroy relationships.
You’re ashamed for everything you’ve done and everything you haven’t.
There is a part of you that wants to make things right.
A sudden positive upsurge makes you want to go out and meet people but… it’s all very short-lived because you know it won’t work anyway.
Things that make your friends excited leave you indifferent and you become aware of the huge gap that lies between you.
Another failure is not an option, so in the end, you choose to be alone in your comfort zone where no one asks any questions.
The low self esteem and the lack of purpose become unbearable.
You finally realize you can’t go on that way and two things can happen:
You either decide to get some help or you…. might attempt a suicide.

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rocketman 5/26/2019 - 9:17 pm

Woooo! I really like your post, so detailed, yes I’ve been there a lot of us have, but you have one more choice and that is to reverse it, get back in the game, not all at once! but little by little, you have to fight depression not live with it, fight it and everyday it will get better, start doing those things you enjoy start interacting again, and you will feel much better, depression never leaves but if you deal with it little by little you will make progress, it took time to get there it take time to get back.

LostInside 5/26/2019 - 10:47 pm

Not everyone has that 3rd choice actually. That’s like saying everyone has the chance to go to college or anyone can be an astronaut. It’s just not in the cards for us all.

rocketman 5/26/2019 - 11:05 pm

Not really, were not talking about academic achievements or training to go to the moon, were talking about mental health ” Depression” The more you embrace it the more it won’t let you go.

LostInside 5/27/2019 - 1:14 am

It embraces us so…wrong again. We don’t have a choice to just let it go. If we did then wouldn’t we?

Bisban 5/26/2019 - 9:47 pm

Kenbi?

LostInside 5/26/2019 - 11:05 pm

You really nailed it!

nomorepain461 5/27/2019 - 12:54 am

that is a spot description. i hope one day the world becomes a better place where pain doesnt have to be hidden so much.

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