I don’t understand what is going on with me, I just don’t feel joy anymore. Okay I feel some sort of joy momentarily, for example when I see something super interesting or very funny, but these just last a couple of seconds. I don’t have interest in pretty much anything. And when I have the interest I cannot find the energy to pursue it, I’m indifferent to so many things. I’m looking back and seeing that the last time I was happy was back in 2011 or something. And one day in 2015 when I bought myself something that I wasn’t expecting to find. I have nothing that I’m looking forward to, I have no hopes for anything, I don’t expect anything from anyone or from any group of people, and I don’t see the point of anything anymore. I’m already 34, and if I’m going to spend the rest of my life that lonely, all the time, then I don’t see the point. Just gonna continue living for a couple more years and then end it I suppose, I don’t know. Great post.