Last night my boyfriend and I got into a fight. It was stupid. And he hurt me so bad, that I am now trying, heeding to find ways to change how I look, and who I am.
It all started on Tuesday. He asked me if I was busy Thursday night, I said yes I am. He all of a sudden started acting upset/mad. I’m thinking it is probably because he can’t hang with me. I didn’t want to say anything because I didn’t wanna fight with him. Wednesday, he started ignoring me. Thursday, last night, he still ignored me. He knew I was pissed and he talked to me, it ended up being a huge fight.
He then told me “I know a few girls, if I asked they would date me.” That comment made me pissed, and he didn’t want me to be pissed. He made things worse than they needed to be. It made me feel like he didn’t care, like I wasn’t important to him, like I was replaceable. I broke up with him, because my boyfriend shouldn’t make me feel like that. I didn’t want to be with someone who would disrespect me like that.
Today, he told me he wanted to break up with me, he couldn’t get himself to break up with me, so he was hoping I would. He got his wish. He says he is sorry, but I believe he is not sorry.
I am now tomorrow after I’m done with work, I am dying my hair to a red color. I feel like I need to change something because I need a new life. A new beginning. I am going to start working on myself. Maybe I can find happiness again, and help you guys and others find their happiness. But, I have told myself maybe I can be happy again, but that hasn’t happened yet. But for now I need to take baby steps.
Hope you all have a nice night. XOXO AJ