I’ve worked out that the cost of my desired CTB would cost about the same as the two pairs of shoes I bought last month…
Joined another site (strict on their rules) but there is more freedom/liberal speech…
I’m still 100 percent serious about my suicide but I’m still 50/50 “Yes, one hand on my suicide, One hand on the rose”..
I won’t commit until I have exhausted all therapy/resources available to me and being as that hasn’t even started yet I may as well see that through first. Scary to finally know that the backup IS doable.. I keep trying you know, still dragging that very dead horse..
But deep down..
Learned a lot about myself in the years I’ve been away. It’s all starting to make perfect sense but it still isn’t getting any easier and I’m getting worse.
Anyway big-up peace and love ye old vets and noobs.
Sending fourth my compassion and empathy which’ll always remain no matter how dead I am nor bitter with humanity Xxx