My head is completely fucked up, as in my cranium. It is oblong and my face is flat, I basically look like an alien. I haven’t really come across anyone who looks like me so I’m assuming my deformity is based on a complication during my birth, and not genetics. Either way, I look like a mutant.
I have felt separated from normal people for most of my life but I occasionally have moments where I can relate with them. I used to go to psychiatrists and they would tell me that I have “body dysmorphic disorder” but I know what I really am. Of course, my parents tell me that I look normal and I don’t disavow them because of this, they are just being loving parents.
I wear a hat to hide my fucked up head but when I have to take it off, I am exposed.
I just want a way to end this.
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Become a freaky punk rock star you’ve got an in with your deformity. Wish I had a deformity. Chicks like rock stars.
I understand how you feel. I don’t know how you look like, but even if youre not exaggerating, it’s really not a good enough reason to kill yourself. There are a lot of things you’ll get to enjoy and you’ll get to experience. Emotional pain is very heavy, but you can change that. Most people wont judge you for your appearence, even though we live in a very narcisistic and image-focused world, the virtues that are truly valued and important have always been the same. Please, if you’re healthy, there are lots of things you can still enjoy and accomplish in this world.
There is a book/movie called wonder about a young boy with a greatly deformed head. I believe once you begin to know someone, physical appearance becomes an irrelevance