I don’t have many options. I know discussion of methods isn’t allowed here so I won’t get into details. But I can only jump, and there’s only one place I could do it from, and I’m afraid I’m going to land on someone because there’s an atrium below. I’m going to go crazy, I already have. I really can’t take it anymore. I hate being alive so much. All I want is a guarantee that I’ll die, and I’ll be at peace. They built a fence at the 2 popular locations in my state. So the only thing I have left is this place… but now I have to worry about people taking smoke breaks below. I want to freaking scream, I can’t handle it. I’m literally thrashing on the bed and crying and I want to bang my head against a wall. I just want OUT! I’m not asking for much. I didn’t choose to be born, I just want to die. I can’t take this.