Well, I promised on here that I would do it, and I did try. However my efforts were thwarted because this particular strategy though effective, is very painful.
I went to the store and bought glass cleaner (active ingredient is ammonia) and a gallon of bleach. I poured the contents of both into my bathtub. Nothing really happened. I decided that it needed to be more concentrated, but I was out of glass cleaner. I found some lysol toilet bowl cleaner (active ingredient hydrochloric acid) and poured it into the bathtub as well. That was the ticket. Immediately my lungs began to burn, I began coughing uncontrollably, my eyes burned, my throat burned. These two chemicals combined make a toxic gas. I knew this ahead of time. My chest became tight and I was short of breath. I made it out of the bathroom to the couch where I called 911. The EMT’s immediately put me on oxygen, but my O2 saturation was low 80’s. Medically speaking this is called hypoxia. I was taken by ambulance to the hospital, where I was given 2 albuterol breathing treatments, and underwent a battery of tests. One particular test was blood gas. This blood test is taken from an artery as opposed to a vein. The results of that test revealed my blood was only 56% oxygenated, which meant my organs and brain were essentially starved for oxygen. I was transferred to another hospital where I was again placed on oxygen and given 4 more albuterol breathing treatments along with repeated blood tests. I was released 24 hours later, with a diagnosis of chemical pneumonia AKA chemical burns in my lungs.
The one thing I learned from this experience is this is not the way to check out.
My family and the doctors do not know it was a suicide attempt. They think I was cleaning the bathroom and got creative with the cleaning stuff. Since I have yet another failed attempt under my belt, I guess I will leave it this way.