Not suicide related
I really really really really want to be gone. You know you’ve got no purpose and no point in life when you feed your money into a poker machine over and over again.
Or play keno all day.
Sorry don’t mean to boast about money here. At this rate I’ll soon have none anyway.
Can’t help but think that the people working where I gamble think I’m the biggest idiot ever (here is a fact though: workers in such places are not allowed to comment on individual gamblers. Workers have been sacked for telling gamblers that they are addicted, another was sacked for telling a guy to spend the money on wedding/gift related things, and not throw his winnings back into the poker machine)
I hate this so much. Hate hate hate hate hate. Many have offed themselves during coronavirus restrictions/lockdowns. Misery is all I know! Wish I was dead!!!