When you don’t care about anything anymore?
When you’re not doing anything to help yourself
When you’re only doing destructive things (in my case, literally not doing anything)
I’ve fallen into a deep pit of depression, despair, and self-loathing.
I cannot get out of this deep pit; it takes too much effort to.
While I don’t drink or do drugs, being depressed and doing nothing with my life is just as destructive. I don’t go out, I don’t have friends, I barely go out to get food to feed myself. It’s pathetic. I feel half dead already, not living life.
All I do every day is watch tv or movies to numb the pain of my life, the pain of being me.
I don’t know how to get back my “oompf” for life.
I’m not even trying anymore.
At least in the past I tried. And I did go out and do things and had some “fun” or whatever you call it.
But this time it’s pure 100% self destructive depression- doing nothing all day but mope and cry and trying to drown out the pain of being me.