My doctor took my advice and put me on klonopin. Which is doing wonders for my anxiety which was all day every day. It doesn’t change my feeling of wanting to hang from the rafters. I don’t know exactly whats stopping me. I’m selfish and I know this because of my children. What is stopping me? I don’t know. Sorry for the ramble but F*** this!
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I took something similar and it made me feel worse. You look it up and it’s for seizures. Tried it. Do not recommend help from pill pushers. They usually just do what they are told and have zero experience overcoming issues like suicide and terrible sadness. Being completely free of all drugs was the best thing for me. I just vent occasionally and tell myself when I’m feeling bad that I’ll probably get over it and feel good later. That’s the moments l live for. You don’t need help from anyone but yourself. Others tear you down. IDK if you truly believe you are absolutely insane then maybe you should be medicated but other then that get out of there. Interesting username.
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Meds don’t address the cognitive processes that create emotion. They only alter the balance of chemicals in one’s brain, which causes differing physical sensations, some good, some bad. Changing the thought processes requires talk therapy, at a minimum, and is a formidable task.
Everytime I’m supposed to have an appointment with the doctor for talk therapy I cancel it. I’m afraid to be honest of doing what needs to be done.
I must admit I like meds and Im an addict. For me meds are great until they take them away from me. Recently I was getting Xanax from a sibling and she cut me off and my ex gives me Clonidine and they really help me and also helped me handle the Xanax withdrawal. Its a very nasty withdrawal that put me in the hospital years ago and I knew better than to start them again but what is the alternative? Ya’ll know the answer to that one here. I quit weed a year ago cause it didn’t work anymore and quit drinking 20 years ago. My son is going into treatment for alcohol soon. He is just destroying his life and he is bipolar like his mother. He ran his truck into a lake last week and got a second DUI a few days ago and now hes threatening suicide. WTF can I get a break. Is it no wonder I myself want to die. I have been thru hell for many years now and it just won’t let up. I friken hate this life.
Can you still apply for a service animal ? I recommend a dog. Suicidal thoughts this morning, then I had a very serene walk with my dog and the thoughts were gone.
Gone that is until the evening when they came back. We watched a stream flow, heard and observed Spring Peepers –a large loud group of frogs on a pond, walked in the mud, heard a bird of prey overhead etc. Every day is a new adventure waking her–I can tell you stories ! While walking her I do not think about suicide–it is the only time that my mind is clear! I hope you can hang in there.