Wth?!

My insomnia kicked in mid sleep. How the heck does that manage to happen?! My brain must be battling with some procrastination or somethin. Like eh lets wait til she gets up to use the bathroom at 3am and then hit her with the wide awake. Wish i had a hot cup of coffee. 1 thing i hate about living in shelters or cheap hotels, never any fkn coffee!!! Went from a full pot of bold coffee every morning to zero. The small things in life is what i really miss. Like my coffee n vanilla creamer, butter, a toaster and a car lol it took me 4hrs just to go to a doc appt yesterday. Public transport takes fkn forever with all these bus changes n waiting. If i had a car id been gone like 25mins not 4 hours!!!! Get to take my youngest son to the movies tomorrow. I havent seen him in 2wks. I miss havin my lil man be with me all the time. But hes lucky to have a dad n step mom to take care of him while me and my eldest kids deal with homelessness. If my eldest kids dad wasnt a drug addict womanizer who sleeps with women just to get off the streets at night and was a decent human being, id have them be with him too just so they didnt have to struggle with me. But eh who knows maybe 1 of my kids will be an author 1 day and right about our travels, our hardships and what it takes to survive and earn enough money where their kids will never have to experience what they did. Its def a life lesson for em thats for sure.