i am supposed to turn this chaos in my mind into order.
but i just feel lost most of the time.
edit: but it’s not all chaos, there’s a good reason why the chaos is there, i just need a map.
how did the universe ever manage to do this.
edit: universe didn’t do it intentionally.
i don’t even remember what stability is supposed to feel like.
edit: but i’m getting there. i’m just making progress too fast. one month ago i was a wreck. three weeks ago i felt better than i have in a decade. i am moving so fast that i forget to give myself some space to get used to things.