Peering out on the edge of the window
You look down
A chasm deeper than the Mariana
You’re above it but still drowning
Till finally, you feel the push
Was it the wind?
Was it your fears?
No, you were thrown.
Discarded by some fool who’d lost grip on reality
And there goes gravity
The suffocating turns into air
Air into freedom
Freedom into fear
Fear… then, regret
It’s too late
You’re already falling
No parachute to save you now
And god is on a business call
What is real?
Who knows, cause now the only thing real is the pain.
The suffering you once felt is gone
Replaced by pain indescribable with words
The clock ticks
Everything ever, flows through your mind as the line between conscious and not, blurs
The pain is gone now
But the drowning has returned
But this feels more real
Not as ethereal as before
You’re quite literally drowning
But you always have been
What’s the difference
After what feels like eons of darkness
Your eyes open
You can’t move but you see doctors around you
Sitting in the corner is your family
Your lover is there holding their hands
Waiting outside is your best friend
But someone’s missing
It was that bastard who did this to you!
Threw you out of your apartment window
Maybe they caught them?
Maybe they’re in jail already?
That’ll teach them!
You move your eyes
You see their hands!
Their feet too!
Covered in casts and gauze
Their movements mimicking your own
As if to mock you
Tears roll down your face as you realize
“What have I done?”