Everything.

I just hate where the world is going (I won’t really expand on that here).
I wish I could live in a fantasy world. Real life is awful. I doubt I’d ever want to die in a fantasy world.

I thought it would’ve taken longer to get over my ex. I just ended up putting him in the category of very judgmental people. And that’s what most people are, sadly. My friend is alot less judgemental. There’s a rather small group of people in this world who aren’t needlessly judgemental.

I wasn’t put on this Earth to impress my ex with ‘bettering’ myself.
So I guess this is one good thing.

I’m not really looking for anyone, even though I like one of my neighbours. I told my friend I was done with relationships… I also like my friend but I’m fine with just being friends. Seems he’s done with relationships too. Well I may not entirely be done with relationships… it just sucks to put in effort and it doesn’t work out, etc.

I’m still having nightmares about my dad…

I really want to be gone, overall, as usual. I’ve had this belief that this world isn’t for me and it’s stuck with me a long while. My mum can be moody like me but I feel she sort of understands me.
I am such a burden…

I want my suffering to be over…
I really am only alive because of her. I’m just done… I’m existing, even though I play that video game and maybe do some other things. Whatever.

🙁