I’m lost. I’m completely lost, I thought I was making a life for myself but it turns out I’ve just been sweeping everything under the rug. All I’ve ever done is help other people and make sure that they were doing okay despite the fact that I’m suffering.
I don’t know how to help myself, I’m scared that I’ll just suffer more consequences for trying. I made a big step today but I’m not sure if it was a good choice. I feel completely numb and apart from the world yet again, I hate this feeling I want it to go away. Maybe I’ll get professional help instead of grasping at coworkers and strangers for temporary help.
I want to feel important to people, I want people to care but at the same time I wish I could just disappear and be nonexistent to the world. I don’t know why my life took the route it did, everything slipped through my fingers and I can’t control anything.
I dont know what I’m doing.
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There isn’t much I can really say to help, but I wish I could give you a hug. I’ve felt like this before and it’s truly a horrible feeling. You mentioned wanting to get professional help, and that’s a pretty good idea. It would probably help a lot. I hope stuff gets better for you