i hate myself. i despise myself. out of everyone in the world, its me i hate the most. and i hate myself for feeling this way.
i live with my single mom because my dad cheated on her when i was six. yeah im still in highschool and my problems right now are so insignificant compared to others in the world.
i wish i was pretty. i hate the way i look. i wish i could cut off my fat with a knife. i wish i could cut into my eyelid to change my eye shape. i hate myself for this. my mom works so hard for the two of us and i cant do shit and i wish i could give her everything she deserves.
i hate that i hate myself, because i know people love me, like my boyfriend, my mom and my friends. but still, i wish i was a different person entirely.
ive thought of killing myself but i know my mom wouldnt last without me. we dont have a lot of money and i just have to study now so that i can help support her in the future. i just hate that i cant do anything else and i hate that i look this way. i hate myself i hate myself i wish i was someone else i hate this
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Try setting daily goals, even if it’s something simple like walking 30 minutes a day and a few chores, it turned my severe depression around in a very short period of time.
Please don’t develop an eating disorder. It’s a struggle to recover. Start playing a sport regularly if you don’t already. A few weeks in you’ll have a whole new respect for your body and the way it works. And it’s good for your mental health so win win.
Does your bf give you the right amount of attention in your life? I always feel having a significant other can bring good things if the relationship is stable.
You might hate yourself right now. Hate the fat. Hate the way you look. Hate the way your eyelids look.
You matter more then your could ever possibly imagine. Think of loving yourself like you love your mom. Your mom does her best she can, exactly like you do. Things change, you change, life changes.
Like you said yourself; People love you. Your boyfriend, Mom and your friends. They don’t see all the things you see. They see a beautiful girl with a heart of gold. People are more then what they appear to be on the outside. So are you.
Self compassion and self love. You are beautiful exactly the way you where born.
I wish you and your mom all the best. Keep working hard and you will get exactly where you want to go. Dream big and stay Healthy and stay strong.