What the hell lifelong friend.?! 2 days ago I replied to my friend R. and she tells me short and cryptic sentences. It sounds like a goodbye. You’d think, someone who planned on dying, actually had some great last words to offer. But… that wasn’t the case.
So I’ve tried to make her tell somebody about the bottle of pills she swallowed, her roommate at best. It took me a while and I convinced her to do so – Radio silence. There was nothing I could do, so I just waited. Got a “My roommate took me to the hospital”, that’s it. I really wonder, if I had gotten any message, if I hadn’t been online in that moment.
What happened to you, dear friend.? When did you stop, telling me these things.? I am so mad at you. Not for doing, what you did (shit, I’ve been there), but for the way you did it. I feel like we’re not going to be the same for a while. Don’t treat me like a stranger, or there comes the day, I’ll do that too. (And I’m terrifyingly good at that)