TW sh (detailed description of self harm)
I remember when I first started cutting, it was so easy for it to go on. the blade glided through my skin in a soft slice. cut slow and long to feel every moment or cut fast to see more blood. The plan was just three; but three turned to five which turned to ten which turned to a full canvas. It’s the only way I know I’m alive. Ive tried cutting over the healed scars but no matter how much I push there’s just not as much blood as there used to be. I know my only option is to cut somewhere new but the anxiety of someone seeing isn’t worth the feeling of true living.
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Hi, Hello, and Salutations… Thanks for sharing, although I am not a cutter.. I can relate as I also am a self harmer and the only way I truly feel alive is when I am in pain.. Your imagery was on point and I can see why you do what you do. I know the feeling that it brings you well, its the only way you can truly feel anything. No judgment here…..
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