Tomorrow is my seventeenth birthday. Technically it’s in 1 hour, 23 minutes, and 7 seconds.
I should be happy, grateful even.
I don’t really know if I am allowed to be underwhelmed, but that’s the truth.
I feel so selfish for not wanting to celebrate or do much. I’m not trying to, but in reality I’ll just end up ruining it for everybody. My heart is as heavy as stones, and it’s dragging people down with me.
What a bummer, I know.
Happy Birthday I guess?
I grew up not celebrating birthdays or any holidays. It’s not selfish at all honestly. Maybe just take a little time ad reflect on the things you’ve seen and done. How your life’s been so far. You are still very young, and as you get older, your mindset does change.
I don’t know how you see yourself, if you see any worth in your own existence, but sometimes, perspective can help with that. Even if you don’t celebrate in anyway, just give yourself a break tomorrow. Even if you have work or school or whatever, don’t be too hard on yourself.
Buy yourself a cupcake or something. Just find a little thing to enjoy tomorrow.
all i heard was “cupcake” lol xD
hankering for some rn