Everyone just says to go:
1- call a suicide hotline
2- talk to a therapist
People are always quick to say, there’s all these help out there, just make that call, talk to someone, etc. But I’ve done all that and NONE of it helped me. Occasionally it helps to vent sometimes (if it’s due to something that angered me), but otherwise, it feels so empty. Heck, it feels more empty than stuffing one’s face with food, bc at least you feel “good” for a tiny moment as you’re eating said junk food.
Not to mention that it takes having insurance, good insurance, or the right insurance to be able to talk to one you want. Or have money. They’re not free or cheap. So it’s not always easy or feasible to “just go talk to a therapist.”
The few that have actually found a GOOD therapist, they’ve told me it took them a LONG time to find a good one, after trying dozens and dozens. And if their insurance changed, well then they’re SOL.
Personally I’ve found most therapists/hotlines I’ve talked to are really shitty, and most either didn’t help, or made me feel worse.
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I went to a therapist for a short while. The thing about it is, even if you manage to scrounge up enough money for a few sessions, you’re opening an old fucking wound while monitored by Dr. Therapist just to end up having to tend to the wound yourself. That’s not even addressing the fact that different issues require different therapies, and if you don’t know what the hell’s wrong with you to begin with, you don’t even have a viable starting off point. Lord knows it’s not as simple as “just go to therapy”, and I wish mfs would stop acting like it’s a simple solution like that.
Anyway, I called the suicide hotline a few times. Fuckers laughed at me and I got scared and hung up. Sounds like, from others’ experience, even if you’re lucky enough to get someone who does give a shit, they’re so overworked that they can only provide so much.
The issue isn’t something we can solve because the issue is that the system is meant to grind us down until we kill ourselves so they don’t have to worry about us contributing to the strain on social security payments. There’s no simple solution, no solution within the reach of individuals except to win the birth lottery and get born into the right situation with the right family with the right amount of wealth and power and luck your way up from there.
sadly i got screwed with the birth lottery 🙁
and everything’s been downhill since, and bc, of that
exactly, ppl don’t understand how birth lottery affects your life.
it’s so much more than “just think happy” or “pull yourself up from your bootstraps” if you weren’t born with any bootstraps, and have always had an uphill battle since birth.
the best any of it can do is keep you stable, and having been on the other side of the equation I can tell you that’s what they’re going for.
Essentially what it is more than anything is a complaint department with no connection whatsoever with the cause of the problem. The type of person willing to go to therapy is rarely the problem. The type who’d call the hotline is the same thing. It expresses a willingness to change and get help
all we become is more resilient, which is actually enabling even worse behavior from the people around us.
right, keep us “stable,” which is in essence keeping us trapped in this ratwheel of non-living but not dead miserable state of being.
i hate that ppl think these hotlines, or even “therapy” is a solution. it’s like ppl think the solution is right there, you just need to call, and problem solved. and if you don’t call or complain these things don’t help, then they blame YOU when it doesn’t work.