I think I’m going to quit. Only one semester in and I’m already thinking about quitting. I always joked that I wouldn’t last a semester. I guess I know myself best. I went to grad school as a way to run away from becoming an adult. I thought it would be like undergrad and I would continue just goofing off like I did there. I was scared of going into the workforce because I thought I couldn’t make it. That I would fail and become unemployable. So I ran away. Now I’m running away from this. Maybe it was only a matter of time. Since I came into this for the wrong reasons, I’m leaving with my tail tucked between my legs in shame. It is fitting in a way. I’m a failure as an adult. I’m a failure as a man. I’m just a failure. That’s all there is to it.
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
3 comments
as my student advisor often pointed out; university isn’t for everyone, grad school even less so
maybe he didn’t say that, I might be mythologizing
anyway, it’s up to you to know what you can force yourself to do. I suspect you’ll find the open market more punishing, but I might be wrong. The money is better, so they say.
I spent the last three years trying to make do on an undergrad degree, and the one thing I found out is that I value my life more than those employers. Which is absurd and sad because I’ve been variously suicidal during the same time period.
anyway, regardless of which way you go, I’m rooting for you.
I’m sorry this is the case. I didn’t even make it to an associates so I feel your pain and frustration. I hope you find a good job. I hope you excel at it and I hope you feel better. Remember sometimes you win, sometimes you grow.
MY response is quit that BS college and go to a trade school or back to a two year community College IF only you can afford it. Be a Nurse Cna or Rna, Hair Dresser, Get your CDL for truck driving, or be a welder, vet tech etc. Trust me coffee is goddamn useless. I quit and went to a free government trade school because I was poor and got my OSHA lisence now I’m working on being a vet tech or dog hair dresser. Don’t let college drag you down college is a scam.