I read your most recent post and was gonna reply but the comments that were on your post covered anything and everything I would have said. I read that your a Veteran in one of your replys. Im also a Veteran and can relate with your situation. I unfortunately however dont want anyone to help me.. Its that Solider Mentality I cant escape still. I suffer everyday of my life and know what its like to be mentally ill and fractured. I also cant escape the feeling of wanting the pain and struggle of life to come to an end. Taking my life is no longer an option at this point in life. Now I live everyday waiting to die, I self destruct often as I dont care if I see another day in life. Its a manic cycle of mayhem that has become my life. I also dont get bothered by physical pain at this point as you also said. The Mental and Spiritual Pain is unmeasurable and out weighs all.. I feel your pain Brother! We are Brothers in Arms and in Pain. Reach out at any point I am willing to share my time and energy with a Brother who is going through the Shit and is still in the Trenches in life..
well i’ve always been one to do everything on my own my whole life, except now i can’t. i need physical help from people, except i have no help. no one wants to help in any way. just simple stuff like driving to the stores, to the laundromat, etc. hell, i can’t get anyone to understand or have compassion for my depression let alone someone actually helping me.
so yeah, aside from constant physical issues, the fact that i can no longer be self-sufficient and take care of myself is a big factor in my being depressed.
i miss my earlier years when i was healthy and able-bodied.
anyhow, my life sucks. -_-
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I read your most recent post and was gonna reply but the comments that were on your post covered anything and everything I would have said. I read that your a Veteran in one of your replys. Im also a Veteran and can relate with your situation. I unfortunately however dont want anyone to help me.. Its that Solider Mentality I cant escape still. I suffer everyday of my life and know what its like to be mentally ill and fractured. I also cant escape the feeling of wanting the pain and struggle of life to come to an end. Taking my life is no longer an option at this point in life. Now I live everyday waiting to die, I self destruct often as I dont care if I see another day in life. Its a manic cycle of mayhem that has become my life. I also dont get bothered by physical pain at this point as you also said. The Mental and Spiritual Pain is unmeasurable and out weighs all.. I feel your pain Brother! We are Brothers in Arms and in Pain. Reach out at any point I am willing to share my time and energy with a Brother who is going through the Shit and is still in the Trenches in life..
well i’ve always been one to do everything on my own my whole life, except now i can’t. i need physical help from people, except i have no help. no one wants to help in any way. just simple stuff like driving to the stores, to the laundromat, etc. hell, i can’t get anyone to understand or have compassion for my depression let alone someone actually helping me.
so yeah, aside from constant physical issues, the fact that i can no longer be self-sufficient and take care of myself is a big factor in my being depressed.
i miss my earlier years when i was healthy and able-bodied.
anyhow, my life sucks. -_-