I’m so tired of everything in my life. I wish I could call someone and ask them about their day, but I don’t really have any friends to talk to. I don’t even feel like venting. If anyone feels like it, please tell me about something nice that happened to you recently.
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I got down rewatching an old webseries I used to watch when I was in high school. It was good background noise and brought me back a little to a nicer time. Sorry you have no one to talk to. I hope you meet a person who will always be there to talk to you and just be therewjen you need them.
That sounds nice. Nostalgia is always quite enjoyable, isn’t it? On the other part, me too
I got a fair bit done in the yard today, plus most of the day hanging out with my pups, so that was good.
I’ve got bare spots in the back, so overseeding that (also found some seed I forgot that I bought, so quite a lot of seed), meanwhile today looked like the last day I could spread weed n feed, because you have to wait a day after mowing, and it needs to be at least 24 hours before a major rainfall.
We’ll see if the weather cooperates, if it does I’ll be working on breaking down limbs for the compost heap. Rather labor intensive, but it feels good, and my breaks are sitting petting my dogs, not a bad way to spend a day at all.
I’m still trying to reach a level of calm that I can read my book sitting in the yard, because then I really could spend the whole day out there.
Oh, and I have some good horror novels to read, two are on the reread stack so those are certain to be nice, then about a dozen that I’ve yet to complete once.
Then next week it’s supposed to rain for a good three or four days, perfect for settling in with my video games and movies.
Gosh I love spring, if only it didn’t have such a nasty habit of progressing into summer.
Sounds like you are quite busy with that yard work! I remember when I was a kid my dad always made me help out in the garden, picking weeds and plucking berries. Honestly I hated it.
But it’s great that you have something like that, with the plants and the dogs… the way I see it, the more responsibility you have that you can actually see the effects of, the easier it is to do everything else.
What books are you reading? I don’t read a lot of horror – right now I’m reading around the world in 80 days by Jules Verne, I have a lot of books in my bookshelf and lately I have been very tired, so I’ve just been reading this book while I’m not doing anything else. It’s a fun book. The writing style is very different from other books I’ve read.
I’m almost done with Suicide Town by Boris Bocic, I speed read to the ending and then realized I felt like the meat of the story deserved my full attention. So 6/10 right now, depending on how well things fit together it could go up. The plot is about a town where people just seem to want to die at an abnormally high rate. It’s supernatural horror, so the good stuff.
There are two major flaws with it so far. The first is that the protagonist is an author… I always feel like that’s lazy and needs extra work to justify. The second is that the story is more people focused than the characters deserve. If it was me writing it, there’d be more about the mysterious forces, or history, less about who feels how about whatever.
Top of the rereading stack is The Sleepless by Graham Masterton. It’s a book about a sinister supernatural force, but it’s so perfectly balanced. The characters are just likeable enough, and as an author Masterton does a really good job of not telegraphing the ending. Anyone, no matter how likeable, is fair game to die. He’s also the master of exposition, which is my favorite element of many novels.
Finally, top of the unread stack is The Reddening by Adam Neville. I’ve read almost everything he’s ever written, he’s that good. For whatever reason I’ve been going back to his older books rather than reading the new ones, but after finishing rereading what I consider his best work, Apartment 16, I realized I wanted to see where his writing develops next.
Honorable mention to Ambrose Ibsen, a quite talented but sometimes misguided young author of supernatural fiction. He’s my age and I feel a sort of bond with him, it’s so effortless to read his work. Midnight in a Perfect World is his best work in my opinion, though if they would print it in a single volume and edit it that way his Asylum trilogy would just edge it out.