I Have No Hope Left

I can see why some people turn to serious crime (like theft) …nobody wants to be at the bottom and desperation causes them to do anything to get a ‘good life.’

However, many of us refrain due to our ethics/morals, but also the fear of getting caught and facing severe punishment.

Additionally doing evil things makes one become an evil person…it’s usually not worth it in the end…even if one gets rich, like a drug lord.

But ofc if one had known nothing but a life of pain, abuse, health issues…little can be done about it.

One almost assumes we are “owed” a happy existence…but that just depends on having good parents…if one is born into a bad state, not much can be done, but to overcome those negatives and try to make a better life for oneself.

What I realized was that real change always boils down to one thing, money…the more you make the better your life. In my case I tried to run two ‘hustles.’ The main one was my job and the second was doing something to make a lot more money.

With the job I usually just did what I needed to get by, rather than focus on building a career…which is more difficult, and can even waste years but in the end, it’d pay you a lot more (in guaranteed income).

The ‘side hustle’ is usually a longshot, even a moonshot since they rarely ever work out…unless you get extremely good (or lucky) at whatever it is.

In my case I think I have reached that level, but it’s finding the time to make it work that is my problem right now. My main job takes up all my time and doesn’t pay much.

However, I realized I played my cards wrong and should’ve just made my career the main focus like some of my friends/family had been telling me…I just thought I could’ve beaten the odds.

At least though with my side-job, I’ve reached a level of comfort/mastery that I know with good confidence I can derive a much larger income from it, if I had the time to focus more energy on it…but ofc because it’s not guaranteed, I can’t drop my main job to focus on it full time yet…not until I build up enough capital first.

But ya life comes with no guarantees…we all are just trying to ‘wing it.’ Some of us succeed, some don’t…Capitalism creates winners and losers and it sucks to end up being the latter…hence why many people choose to drop out of the race.

There’s a girl on YouTube who used to earn $300k/yr as a banker…. but she was sick of the work-a-day life (she also turned down a huge bonus) and wanted to make YouTube her main source of income, so she jumped ship and became a YT multi-millionaire.

That’s the right way of running your ‘hustles.’ Back when I was a kid, we had no YT so I was unable to gain from this wisdom that’s out there-sadly.