They are all shit. They all know I am sick, disabled, can’t walk, and even worse now after the bacterial infection fucked up my leg. I showed them pictures. It was nasty. All bc mom’s house is fucking disgusting (think hoarder house). OFC NO ONE told me how bad and how disgusting her house was BEFORE I got here. If I knew, I wouldn’t have come up here.
They KNOW it’s bad, but is anyone helping me even the LEAST bit? Fuck no.
No one offering to drive me to dr’s offices, to grocery store, to drop off food. Hell, no one even ASKED if I was ok during Xmas/NY. And I have a shitty aunt who just sends me Jesus memes about being grateful and forgiving and forgetting past wrongs, and that I shouldn’t be angry, etc etc. Fucking Really? I don’t need Jesus memes. I need PHYSICAL HELP.
How am I supposed to NOT be angry when NO ONE is doing a damn thing for me? Hell, I wasn’t even ASKING them to do anything for me, but I thought they would at least ASK if I needed help or ASKED if I was OK. At the least they could have dropped off some food, which is not that much of an ask.
The power went out yesterday- I had NO electricity, NO heat (it is SNOWING rn btw), NOTHING was on. And my mother wouldn’t even come home even a MINUTE earlier than she normally comes home. So I had to wait in the dark, in the cold, till she came back. Everything involves being plugged in- laptop, speakers, tablets, router, etc. So I couldn’t do anything. All I had was my old phone (it’s like 10 years old) so it’s not like I can do very much with that tiny old phone.
But anyway, TLDR- NO ONE is doing a GODDAMN thing to help me. I am stuck here with the worst fucking ppl. The same fucking ppl that convinced me to come back here in the first place bc “that way they can take care of me in case anything happens” bc “if I’m out of the state or country, then I’m too far away for them to help me.” Yeah well, I’m LITERALLY a 5min drive away and they literally couldn’t be bothered to even ASK if I’m ok.
I’m so fucking angry and pissed. If I knew how shitty they’d all be, I would have NEVER come here.
The fact that they all convinced me that it would be better for me and safer for me if I came here bc they could help me is such a fucking JOKE.
I was way better off in CA in that sublet. It wasn’t ideal but it was CLEAN and I never got bacterial infections that rendered me fucking unable to take care of myself. And it doesn’t snow there nor does it get that hot and humid. I am in literal fucking hell right now. It snowed yesterday, and my shitty mom shoveled the FRONT of the house where SHE walks but doesn’t bother to shovel the BACK of the house where I am. Fucking unbelievable. I have a dr’s appt tomorrow and I can barely fucking walk, and there’s all this slippery snow/ice all over the place.
She came to the backyard to take in the bag of rice (someone drops off rice like 2x/week). So she SEES all that fucking snow. But doesn’t bother to brush any of it off. At the time, it was soft snow so all you had to do was get a broom and sweep it. Just the small section where my door/steps are and a little path out. But no.
She saw the snow, took in the rice, and just left. Cleared the snow from the FRONT of the house but not where I am, bc she doesn’t give a shit. Just fucking selfish.
Yes, I need to leave this fucking hellhole, but I can’t bc this place made me super sick, too sick to leave and go anywhere, but the longer I stay the worse my health is. But I can’t leave now that I have all these bacterial infections and I’m still dealing with the aftermath- my skin is all messed up, I can bend my ankles, my foot is all swollen- it’s been like that for 7 weeks. It’s damaged my skin. I need to leave but bc I’m so sick I CAN’T fucking leave.
Fucking catch 22
I hate my life and I hate my shitty family. I wouldn’t be in this situation in this life if I actually had a GOOD family.
I fucking HATE the lot of them.
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Haha, the Jesus memes had me dying. Nothing worse than religious fundamentalists proselytizing during the worst moments of your life inundating you with messages about love and forgiveness when you wish you could murder god. They’re so deluded in their mirage of reality.
instead of fucking preaching jesus, how about they ACTUALLY do something to help? But NOOOOOO. Apparently Jesus only wants you to TALK good shit but never actually lift a finger to help someone. -_-
unfortunately standards of well being for adults ESPECIALLY those with disabilities are lower than anyone can consider “humane”…. and within those sick families those doing the neglect/abuse never seem to see what they’re doing as wrong. Even with consequences coming their way, most of them would rather deal with the consequences than change.
so that’s the why; they continue to make choices that harm you, those choices are part of their character, or lack there-of
it’s bc they don’t give a shit. and in my mother’s case- she doesn’t give a shit AND she doesn’t fucking GET that i’m disabled and can’t walk and do things even when told to her a million fucking times. she literally has NO ability to think OUTSIDE of herself. same with my sister who is exactly like my mother. no ability to put themselves in someone else’s shoes. no ability to have sympathy or empathy. they’re sociopaths. and i do mean sociopath. no ability to have emotions or feelings for others.
in my aunt/uncles case- they DO have the ability to care and have empathy and sympathy- they’re just shitty ppl who don’t give a shit about me.
I really thought they would help you in the situation of health issue, if nothing else. I can’t think of a family that wouldn’t.
wow, you’ve been sheltered. there’s LOTS of ppl who have shitty families and shitty parents who don’t give a shit about their kids.
well now you know at least 1.
unfortunately, there’s many ppl who get screwed like me. some ppl just aren’t born with loving families. and i’m doubly screwed bc i’m disabled