young person with ODD and emotionally/psychologically/physically abusive tendencies. that’s in the past, and i’d say no one around me had lasting effects, but i’m not entirely sure. perfectionistic tendencies when it comes to my environment and the people in it which makes others see me as stunted. need to get started on anything. anything to move forward. thinking about the arts and the social sciences, but may need to get a trade to be able to live on my own and let others not have to take care of me. don’t have any close relationships. obsessive. scared of getting into bad relationship dynamics/falling into unhealthy thinking patterns. on the flip side, self aware, tries to relate to ppl. at times can be seen as manipulative. analytical to the point where people may become uncomfortable. otherwise, solid listener. debt from inpatients. “common sense” can run low/ not proficient with money. not well informed about politics, some basic facts taught in school as i let myself go around 2016 and have been in an even bigger slump since then. can be meddling in others’ lives. don’t have any hobbies/puts them off due to lack of financial freedom. identity revolves around being anxious about personal success/integrity. interested in the similarities/differences between people or the spectrum of the human condition. previously may have entertained unstab;le people. interested in becoming a psychologically healthy individual.
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Oppositional Defiant Disorder? I always have to check acronyms, but I’m familiar with it. I sometimes wonder if I would have been diagnosed as that if I had been just a bit less enthusiastic about going to therapy and pleasing authority figures. I had issues with authority figures, I guess I still do.
Hmmm, it’s a tricky puzzle figuring out what to start on. If you go with a trade, go union, that’s the one thing I know. Pipefitters are the most secure of all the trades.
As far as the arts, my cousin went that way. He ended up getting a degree in it and is currently teaching, no reports yet on how good of a fit that is.
I went the social sciences way, for better or worse. Psychology, and while I griped a lot about it not being that profitable, I might be proven very wrong soon. It really depends on where you go with it. I couldn’t go into providing therapy, which closed a lot of doors. Well, I planned to go into therapy, but my issues with the politics of certification ended up closing the door.
I wanted to become a therapist the way it happened in the 80s and 90s, by getting a PhD in clinical psychology. How it works now is you get a masters degree in Counseling. The difference is research, I always cared more about the research than whether my clients got better. In the end I realized what I really wanted to be was an administrator within the mental health system. Someone has to do it, and I happen to enjoy most of the daily tasks involved.
Anyway, it turns out that my interest in social sciences was far more profitable than my interest in coding, which goes against everything I was told in school.
i appreciate the information. i wasn’t diagnosed with ODD, but i have gotten physically violent before for “no reason,” which was really paranoia of other people and whether they actually care about me or not (kind of like, if you won’t die for me you’re not real to me crazy). i do plan on going along to get along though, for the most part, if it gets me what i want. yeah social sciences are seen as not being lucrative, but it’s not true. i’m surrounded by conservatives so i tend to forget the opposing view.
From personal experience I’ve seen that a lot of psychological health comes from financial freedom. Source of too many psychological problems is dependence of food on others. It’s not visible as such, but once you’re on your own a lot of them vanish in thin air.
By others I mean family and relatives. It’s not like that in professional settings because there you’re doing business but with family it’s emotions. When I realized this I was ready to go beg on streets than to ever be financially dependent on family. Although now I think I can even be dependent with aloofness because I’ve seen the other side. But it wouldn’t be possible without seeing the other side.
But maybe there is more to it now that I am looking back. My health didn’t come even when I was doing job while staying with family. It didn’t come even while I was doing job away from family. It came when I began freelancing online. So maybe I needed freedom from people altogether. Or it was disconnect from background.
i agree, being self sufficient is one of the keys to psychological wellbeing. makes living in america hard if you’re not well-off .