tried to get started with my life at another location for six months. i mentioned my suicidal ideation and they just sent me to another inpatient, not allowing me to return. needless to say, im back from that inpatient and went back to live with family. i don’t really think this is a good fit for me, but i can’t keep stretching my limits here. hopefully i can make it thrugh this, however many yeaars it takes.. don’t really know if i can do it.
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It might be my faulty memory, did you say something about being terminally ill? If so, then isn’t it just a matter of waiting?
no i’m not terminally ill, actually pretty healthy
Well that’s good, and being out of inpatient is good. Though, I sympathize with how much it sucks having gone in at all.
yeah the only thing they could find mentally or physically wrong with me is that i’m vitamin d deficient. i did all this to myself, it’s my borderline autistic thinking process and fear of obligation/hard work as well as the attraction to lives gone wrong that made me even willing to go in. thank god i have my health, but in a way my energetic disposition has made me, ironically, sedentary. although i enjoyed the personal challenge in terms of psych experience, i do agree it can be a little threatening, depending on which inpatient and also if it’s co-ed. also seen firsthand the apathy of the staff. some inpatients are like a dead end, no personal growth or progression. last one i was in, the messages started to work a bit on me.