misery

right. you make me remember i’ve been living selfishly. i just don’t see a lot of people extolling virtue around. it’s either normies or borderline hedonists. i don’t know if i see a lot of people doing something ‘useful” in their lives, people tend to go more towards the “interesting”.. which is good. i guess i just haven’t had a lot of different influences around me. not progressing in any good way makes me focus on all the shit. but the weird thing is, i appreciate noticing those things, it’s just kind of like another branch to life that people don’t understand. when you allow yourself to be petty, and all the negative traits are explored, i think at least for me i see a reason for them. so, there’s nothing to rise above. i could put in the work to also balance that out though by doing some useful things. which is what i’m maybe thinking of to do. it’s for my own sake, anyway.