it’s been a long time. over 2 years, i think. many things have happened since my last post, and i am just about to explode from frustration and just, feeling bad in general.
i started a relationship, actually. it started and it also ended, both things happened because i chose it to be like that. basically, my partner cheated on me while we were long distance. i can’t lie, it was a punch to the gut, i never thought i’d end up like this, and i truly never saw it coming. after we had a few issues regarding communication and just me ending up at the end of the list of his priorities. i also have had a couple seizures during this time, as well as moving to a different country all together
as difficult as starting a new life in a completely different country is, i guess it doesn’t help that i’ve been feeling so alone now, and then having to put an end to a relationship that way, and just having my trust completely shattered, it’s a bit of a lot. not to sound dramatic
i don’t know what to do with myself, actually. my heart feels so heavy, it takes so much effort to breathe properly still. if there’s any advice to help stop being so swallowed up by such things, they’d be greatly appreciated.