The line between sane and insane (reality and imagination) is skewed heavily and it’s getting hard to decipher and find out if it’s which. How do I slow down the process of insanity? I still have my head, but not for forever.
How do I fix this? Memory games? Extra reading? Keeping my mind off of any critical thinking? I got the last one covered, this whole weekend I avoided thinking and further depressing myself. At least I ain’t going back to asphyxiating myself.
This is odd. Is it really insanity? Or is it just another disorder. Or maybe I’m actually getting schizo, after creating another persona to help me cope that will probably turn on me and become “one of the voices”.
Not sure if it’s true, maybe it’s because I am hoping to go crazy on the inside. I know I always wanted “to experience insanity” as if there was a way to exit insanity and reach sanity again.
Disillusionment- becoming disappointed by someone that you once thought great. My dad, and now my mom wanting a divorce with my step-dad. Hope that doesn’t negatively affect.
Hopefully my writing these notes, especially in the school year can help me hold on for a bit longer. I will probably never visit an actual certified, psychoanalyst or psychologist so I can keep guessing what disorders I have mentally and emotionally.
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Why do you think you will never see a psychologist?
Too much money and I realized that if my hope of joining the Army/Marines (U.S.) and then I wouldn’t be able to join if they found out I had mental and emotional problems. Now I ask… Am I going insane?
Read my comment, sorry I didn’t realize you could directly reply to a comment. I’m 17 BTW and a guy.