What the hell is wrong with me? Am I an unlikable person? *sigh* I try you know I try to be friendly but why is it that in whatever I do Im just ignored. Im currently in art school and I try. try hard and I am decent at what I do yet I get no attention in any thing its like Im invisible and it just makes me hate everyone at school.school I HATE that too I enjoy the learning yes BUT I HATE THE PEOPLE THERE …I just hate people in general ? I didnt use to be like this I wasnt so filled up hate. 3 years ago my situation just makes me sad..well depressed but its very tiring being depressed….Its much more easy to be angry than to be sad  but even this….theres just so much a dude can take… I just turned 21… and have never been in a relationship…. theres this one girl I had my eye on (she moved schools 3 years ago) I try…I really do try to just forget about her, yeah no luck there she probably doesnt know me anymore …What do others have that I dont… Its like others are scared of me…im not a big guy (5′ 4”)what do they have to fear? It just makes me feel that I dont have anything…thats not true…my parents…I have them… they are the best and if it wasnt for them I would have no problem killing myself…none at all…..God is so cruel..its like hes teasing me….kicking me in my face as I hold on to a ledge. What does he want from me? I hope all this worth it. I just wish that there would be a reason for me to live for myself  instead of just living for my parents….
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Hi Poster, I’d just like to tell you that you’re worth something. Don’t give up on your dreams and goals because you will be something great. People come and go from our lives all the time and we meet new people almost everyday. There are plenty of people just like you; you just haven’t found them yet. But don’t worry about that because they will come. Once you can learn to be happy outside of a relationship and love yourself truly, a relationship will come easily because you are no longer looking for someone to make you happy; rather you already have been happy before she appeared. You’re life is worth something and you are going to go far. School is for learning, not for socializing. God has a plan for you, don’t ever forget that. You were born with a purpose. Head up man, It will all turn out in the end. 🙂
Thank you skyrider you really helped that day. I do not know what I would do if even here I would be ignored, so thanks again your a good person