again

i did more drinking today with my friends i did half a shot because i was meeting up with my mom shortly and needed to be sane… about an hour ago they wanted me to come back and i said no, not because i was not in the mood trust me i did want to go back and get wasted sure but i did not have a solid plan on coming home or staying out late or what!! my ex or bf or what ever he is kissed me again and hugged me he said he was sorry for leaving me… he has been hitting on me but then acting like he is not by saying that he thinks other girls are hot and then he gets mad when i say someone has a crush on me and he picked me up today (he carried me!) he seems like he still loves me but i am not sure i am in a horrible spot.. can anyone help me!